My birthday is just a few hours away. Guess what guys? I'm going to be 18! I hope that my friends would greet me coz if they don't, they're not going to be invited to my bash! lol



for those who are my friends but don't have my cellphone number, here it is:

Globe - 09177248335

Sun - 09225028960


*applicable only in the Philippines

LOL!!!


greet mu ahp!

ahahahaha

it is still really hard
I still think about you
talk about you and miss you
some days I convince myself that everything is getting better, but its not.
Whenever I hear your name, I wish that you were still mine,
I know I wasn't the perfect guy. I know you hated that I worried about you and other guys, but jealously isn't a bad thing..
It's just a way of saying I care!
I wish you want us as much a I want you..
I miss us and everything we shared.
All the memories.
And I'm not sure what to do anymore.

What hurts the most . . .
is loving someone who doesn't love you the same any more.
But having no way to stop loving her.
And having to be tormented by what she does and all the memories you use to have together.
And having to watch her fall for another guy and go out with him.
Knowing how she can be such an amazing girlfriend
because I was once in his place.
He took away everything from me.
And now all I'm left with is a broken heart that never wants to heal and all these beautiful memories that haunt me.
She's always on my mind.
and every time she touches my mind,
she triggers my heart.
and its that same painful raw feeling all over again.
Why doesn't the feeling ever fade?
Its always the same.
I think I would have been used to the pain by now . . but . . it's still the same pain from day one.
If she can't love me like I love her, then it isn't meant.
But how do you stop loving her then?
I wish she would realize that what we had was real and if we were together, we could recreate those feelings again.
But she doesn't see it that way.
Why can't she see that as many times that she has cause me unbearable pain, that I always end up sticking around.
why can't she see that not all guys would do this.
Really I am such a FOOL.
If anybody else was in my position they would have left and not stuck around for so long.
I can't take the pain anymore . . .
but I don't know how to let go . . . .
I guess its because I'm scared of letting go because I'm scared she won't come and try to make me stay.
she said she can live without anyone . . .
the best thing for me is to let go . . .
but I guess for now . . I'll have to ease out of her life because this pain . . . is just TOO much.
how everyday, I don't see my friends or hang out with anyone else because I'm always hoping that she would just drive to my house or call me up to hang out. And I'm scared of missing those chances to spend time with her.
If she knew the agony that i have to go through, I wonder what she would do.

CLARENCE TAGUIAM! I forbid you to look at my profile! you used my work without my permission! if I caught you using my work again, YOU'RE DEAD MEAT SON!

I look at you everyday
Wishing you would come my way
I watch as you stare back at me
And in your eyes all I see
Is a friend that's all we'll ever be
But in my dreams
Of you and me
I'm stupid enough to believe
You really love me